by Bethany Rosselit for Tiny Buddha
“The mind is not a vessel to be filled but a fire to be kindled.” ~Plutarch
I remember when I first learned about “positive thinking.” I was to observe my thoughts, then sort them into “useful” and “not useful.”
This made sense to me, and it surprised me how many “not useful” thoughts I encountered. On a daily basis, I was telling myself that I was not good enough, that things could never work out, and that I was on the verge of being fired from my job.
“Not useful. Not useful,” my mind kept repeating. And yet the thoughts persisted. Why was this? Why wasn’t my positive thinking working?
I began repeating affirmations. I made a list of everything I hated about myself, then reframed it in the positive and read it every day. I repeated mantras. I watched YouTube videos with subliminal messages.
And yet I was calling myself a “worthless P.O.S.” on a daily basis.